Follow Me In My Determination To Change

I thought if I shared my journey I would be more likely to succeed.

Monday 27 December 2010

Christmas on a Diet

This was actually not too bad a deal. I had a small plate for Christmas lunch and didn't even finish it I was full. Late afternoon I did pick at cheese for a while but again not too much, I did feel uncomfortable for a while a definite reminder I can't just keep eating.

I had another try at champagne and failed, so I'll stay off that a while longer. I had lovely walks although no true exercise and on boxing day the best walk ever with friends on the beach.

On Christmas Eve I went for an Indian Curry with my friend, her husband and our daughters, it was the best.  I am very lucky.

My Best Christmas Present

My last posting I had reached a plateau and was miserable. But I did start the exercise and last week I was able to stop the iron tablets as my blood count was back to normal (but I still feel tired), but finally two days before Christmas I got back on the scales. I hadn't weighed myself for almost 2 weeks so was hoping there would be some movement and there was. 2.5Kg. I was so happy. Then yesterday I weighed myself again and I had hit the magic 97Kg. Why magic? Well it is 21kg (half of 42) and my halfway point. I am half way there.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me this far and keep going I need to. I spent Christmas with two very special friends both of whom have achieved their target weight this way. I was much bigger than them to start with but I know with every one's help I can do it.

Wednesday 22 December 2010

Plenty of Exercise This Weekend

Today I woke up and made myself leave bed within 20 minutes of the alarm going off. I was meant to be getting away for Christmas today but the snow is getting in the way of that.

Yesterday I began with my 5 miles on the cross trainer and then spent 2 hours digging a path for the car so that today I could drive off to chuch and then onto the airport. Today the airports were not giving much away at 6.30am so I did another 5 miles on the cross trainer and then went outside. More snow had fallen over night but not too much, I reckoned.

So when the doctor says, "have you exercised" I can say yes.

Friday 17 December 2010

Not Happy At All

I have said it twice but being at home does not help me. I know I am not perfect but I have tried and in the last 3 weeks I have only lost 2Kg and that includes the big fat zero I have lost this week.

I have started the exercise and I know that will take a while to kick in, and I am sure iron tablets don't help (no need to go into details here), but I am disappointed. Week 9 and no weight loss.

My normal reaction to disappointment would be to go eat something, that isn't going to help either. So I have to 'suck it up' and not lose heart. I reached my mini target of 100Kg and then have just stuck there.

Please Santa, motivation in my stocking.

Thursday 16 December 2010

A Week At Home

Most people I know think my biggest challenge is travelling and living in hotels all the time. WRONG, my biggest challenge is being at home.

There are just 12 steps from my PC in my study to my fridge. If I am interacting with others, i.e. a teleconference or a webcast or even just an active email or IM trail then I am OK, but I am also a procrastinator and a great way to do that is to have a quick cup of tea, and how better to spend the time whilst the kettle boils but to check out the fridge?

So this week i have tried hard. i have filled the freezer with ice pops, < 20 Kcal and a great stop gap, and trying to not eat more than every 3 hours.

I have managed to start each day with the cross trainer so better than nothing.

Saturday 11 December 2010

The Workout Begins

So the doctor says I have to exercise. So today I dragged the cross trainer into the house and that was easier than dragging myself onto it, but I did and managed a whole 6km, but it was a good start and lets see how I manage tomorrow. I need the weight loss to speed back up again if I am going to be as he wants in 4 months.

I am at home for a whole week so should get me into a sort of routine. At least I don't have to worry about pigging out over Christmas.

All Systems Go

Had my 6 week check up with the surgeon, except I was two weeks late due to me being away with Work.

The doctor was pleased I have lost 18Kg and that means i have made my 100Kg, my first goal! Whoppee!

However he wants another 18 - 22Kg by the time I go back at 6 months. So it seems he wants a little less than I had thought but I will stick with the 42Kg for now (like the number) and see how I do.

The nutritionist was also pleased and gave me info on my body fat. I started with 51.8% and have a goal of 25%. At this check up i was 45% so a good start.

however doctor said I have to exercise hard now, at least 3 times a week in the gym or swimming.

Saturday 4 December 2010

Tired and Emotional

Last week was my busiest week of the year. I should have been on a real high, it was the first time most people had seen me since the op, and I felt I looked great.

There was a lot going on and I was tired, and it got to me, and I let it. Each morning the alarm went off early, I couldn't get myself out of bed and I just lay there worrying about the day ahead. Then I got stressed and simply didn't enjoy it like I should have.

I have great friends and they got me through it, and as the last day approached I thought I would have my first drink to celebrate. Disaster. One sip of champagne and the bubbles stuck in my throat, so I tried a brandy, I could suck the ice but the brandy stayed on the top like oil on water. These were both on empty stomachs so later after food I tried red wine, which was the most successful but not really, and finally Guinness (it contains iron, it should have been medicinal); another failure.

Basically I was just tired and it set off a vicious circle, hopefully I can relax and get past this, it wasn't me and I ended up in tears one night, when surrounded by friends. I am not concerned, I know it will pass, just want it to be quick. I am a worrier but stress is a step too far.

And to those wonderful friends, who got me through it. Thank You.

Sorry for the Slow Update

Sorry it is so long since my last update. Thanks to all those who sent me emails of encouragement, and thanks Tigger (whoever you are) for the comment. Good Luck to you.

So after my fail weekend I lost just a 1/2 Kg, but that is OK, if I had lost more I would think it wasn't an issue. This last week however I have lost another Kg and am now less than 1Kg off 100Kg.

I see the doctor on Thursday which will  be 8 weeks so I hope he will be pleased with me and then I get a real target and I have to start the serious exercise.